Saturday, December 30, 2006

i picked up some of the phrase in my book i just read. kinda interesting and i just copy and paste on this. LOL

My feet they are sore, and my limbs they are weary;
Long is the way, and the mountains are wild;
Soon will the twilight close moonless and dreary
Over the path of the poor orphan child.

Why did they send me so far and so lonely
Up where the moors spread and grey rocks are piled ?
Men are hard-hearted, and kind angels only
watch over the steps of a poor orphan child.

Yet distant and soft the night breeze is blowing
Clouds there are none, and clear stars beam mild
God, in His mercy, protection is showing
Comfort and hope to the poor orphan child.

Even should i fall over the breoken bridge passing
Or stray in the marshes by false lights beguiled,
still will my Father,with promise and blessing
take to His bosom the poor orphan child.

There is a thought that for strength should avail me
though both of shelter and kindered despoiled,
Heaven is home, and a rest will not fail me
God is a friend to the poor orphan child.

"yet it would be your duty to bear it, if you could not avoid it ; it is weak and silly to say you cannot bear what is your fate to be required to bear"

"she has been unkind to you, no doubt ; beacause you see she dislike your cast of character; but how minutely you rememeber all she has done and said to you! What a singularly deep impression her injustice seems to have made on your heart! No ill-usage so brands its record on my feelings.Would you not be happier if you tried to forget her severity, together with the passionate emotions it excited? Life appears to me too short to be spent in nursing animosity or regiestering wrongs. We are, and must be, one and all, burdened with faults in this world; but the time will soon come when, I trust, we shall put them off in putting off our corruptible bodiesl when debasement and sin will fall from us with this cumbrous frame of flesh, and only the spark of the spirit will remain-the impalpable principle of light and thought, pure as when it left the Creator to inspire the creature; whence it came it will return; perhaps again to be communicated to some being higher than man- perhaps to pass through gradation of glory , from the pale human soul to brighten to the seraph! Surely it wil never, on the contrary, be suffered to degenerate from man to fiend? No: I cannot believe that: I hold another creed: which no one ever taught me, and which i sledom mention; but in which I delight, and to which I cling: for it extends hope to all: it maes eternity a rest- a mighty home, not a terror and an abyss. Besides, with this creed, I can so clearly distinguish between the criminal and his crimel I can so sincerely forgive the first while I abhor the last: with this creed revenge never worries my heart, degradation never too depeply disguest me, injustice never crushes me too low: I live in calm, looking to the end"

Friday, December 29, 2006

hey! ppl ! how are you feeling today? ^^ XD *elated*

Well actually my mom told me that she bar my internet connection and said i couldnt play for a month! so was pretty sad coz i miss chatting ! anyway she told me that i slept too late and that's why she wanna stop me from it ! >.< So a few days liao i didnt not play internet and what i did is practicing my organ and etc. Den today my mom told me that streamyx wouldnt allow and now i can continue going on9. anyway, i rarely play because the internet connection is freaking annoying. so ended up not playing.

Okay i went out with my schoolmates on 27 dec! it's pretty fun and nice. oh yes. my so-called enemy fren came along. Actually i dont know what had happen between us. So haha. i spoke to him a little and not much though. ntg to chat. i also realise that he became weirder than b4. i mean he wasnt weird for the last two years but this year as i met him he is one. I'm the first to arrive at sunway pyramind =.= 10 am. that;s very early of me. next was ann june and third is miss judith! LOL She was so cute ! seriously ! the way she dress! XD kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii LOL. haha. 12 of us went skating expect for him. lol oh yes he is the only guy with a bunch of gals. lucky him. lol. I had really fun skating. though i couldnt skate but i tried and finally manage. fell once lol awfully pain on my butt. In surprise i met my old sunday school fren eric! such a coincidence! i get to met him after a long time. haha. he change alot though. kinda miss him. lol. anyway he taught me how to skate a little. thankx ya.
So after skating we had our lunch at mcd. I"M SICK OF MCD. wanna know why? the place i'm living mcD is the ONLY fast food there. So of course i'm sick. kentucky wont be that bad compared to mcD. I seriously dont want to talk wat movie we watch. i sux like shit. the worst movie. COTGF =.= stupid show. I dont see any HAPPY endings. LOL. i want happy endings not a sad ones. i felt that i just threw rm 7 in the drain. =.= LOL Seriously it was hilarious watching that movie. Most of us ended laughing.
Speaking about the pictures we took from machines is so expensive. rm4 each persosn. =.= EXPENSIVE WEI n its not worth it. the picture turn out to be ugly. anyywa i'm not a photogenic person and i dont look good in any pictures we took. *cry*





Monday, December 25, 2006

Okay so today is christmas day ! yeap MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone ! on the christmas eve, i went to cdm for mass. Yeap i was told to come early for it but reach there around 10. And the mass is starting at 10.30. In my suprise, the church is filled with ppl. Seriously! There isnt any much seat for us. luckily i manage to get ! thank goodness. Before the mass begin there was a play going on. singing and acting they are good ! HAha i'm suppose to join them but i didn;t lol. Hey Timothy's voice was really fantastic ! and also the songs LOL i feel like singing now ~~ haha. the first noel ~~~ So the service ended around 12 midnight but we went home early after the communion. haha avoid jams. lol. So came home went for supper at 1 am at mcD haha
i ate a burger ! lol we shared drinks n keep on refilling muhahaha.. lol free mah..

OKAY SO NOW christmas day ! LOL. i woke up around 9 am n quickly wrap out present in my bro's room. haha kinda last minute. YEap we had a christmas party in my house with parent's church friends. It was great ! seriously. I was thinking that the party gonna start in the evening but when i asked my mom she said is afternoon. then i started to panic. LOL it is because i need to practice my organ for the party. gonna sing some songs b4 starting. Quickly i practice with my earphone. LOL. mom watching tv ask me not to kacau. =.= haiz. While practicing i realise mistakes for the sounds. I didnt write it down. Dont know how much should i transpose it. haha. nway i manage it i guess ? LOL yea sort off. at1pm evryone came serioulsy not really punctual. SO when everyone arrives gather around the living room. and i sat on my organ feeling alittle shacky. BOOM i did mistake on the beginning ! ahhhh damn damn mistakes !!! SO i started again n it went well for that song. the rest ah HA ... =.= i dont wn to talk about it. it was terrible. N i play "we wish you a merry christmas" around 6 times. haha. kinda fun. we have roast chicken, turkey n lamb. LOL nice nice yummy ! haha blek. lol there is this small gal around 4. SHE IS SO CUTE !!! LOL her grandma told me that she always mention about me everytime she passes my hse. haha. and erm i met a weird boy. =.= his weird very very weird. WEIRD weird weird weird. weird weird weird weird weird weird. WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD. OKAY enough of caling him weird. i was weird too. haha.
i feel like sleeping haha. tired like shit ! good nite n merry MERRY CHRISTMAS !

Sunday, December 17, 2006

indifferent.

Sometimes i'm jealous with my friends. I see them living in a contented life compare to me, its much different. Maybe it might be the same from the out side but inner it is different.
~~~end~~~
And today, i went for kpp in seri muda. gosh. weird. listening for five hours talk. SICK! anyway i managed it. and get to know Debbie. She is delicate girl and also sweet. yes of course she is pretty! And i regrated that morning becoz i slept at 3am. tires me out! i yawn many times and i know it is rude to fall asleep when some one is talking. hey i triedd not too but i did.. So break time is just only half and hour break ntg much. So called cafeteria. when there. ewww. "i'm not going to eat those" fried food n i have sore throat. So i ended up eating sweets. Surprisingly the next talk is much more interesting compare to the previous talk. though it is from the same guy, i notice he is trying to get our attention and made a few jokes to laugh. So wat did he talked about? Enjine!! lol n a few stuff too. except the fines part. it sux.

came home around 3 pm. ate my lunch vigorously. hey i'm starving man. at two paos i made yesterday. hell ya. I also reliase that i'm getting fatter. gosh. ya. i am. at home i played the organ for more than two hours. and i enjoyed that time. need to practice to make things perfect then i may record it! haha. beside i also did some christmas songs too. i used sustain to make the sounds even merrier. haha. luckily i didnt put distortion. i tried. gosh is dumb. the music is terrible when i played with distortion. i need to learn up my organ! lots of functions yet i dont know.

yesterday, i tried to help a girl freind of mine about her relationship. adn i dont know much about love realationships. neway not interested. So wat i did was, i asked for her problems and she told me from top to toe. I was shocked and helpless. So i tried to tell her a story realated to my life. She told me she was miserable and etc. i told her. its nonsense for her being miserable. why? she complained and hav not undergo any pains nor suffering. why is she complaining about? it make no sense. You cant have everything to be in your way. like the poen we did during form 4. road not taken. making choices in life is really hard and it tires me. I dont know whether i should follow the crowd or the other road which is less trodden back? k i think i'm out from wat im suppose to say.

Music is the only thing that can calm you down. whether you are in depress mood, sad or miserable. it is one of the best to help yourself. dont keep everything to yourself and learn to let go. it hurt alot when you kept everything for yourself and not letting it out. one day you will burst and cry out loud. learn to let go although i myself having trouble to let go of somthing. and i dont care, i'm not letting go!

Friday, December 15, 2006

Take time to laugh. enjoy!

A first-grade teacher, Ms Neelam (Age 28) was
>having trouble with one of her students the teacher
>asked, "Boy what is your problem?"
>Boy: Answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade.
>My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than
>she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"
>Ms Neelam had enough. She took Boy to the
>principal's office.
>While Boy waited in the outer office, the teacher
>explained to the principal what the situation was.
>The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy
>a test and if he failed to answer any of his
>questions he was to go back to the first-grade and
>behave.She agreed.
>Boy: was brought in and the conditions were
>explained to him and he agreed to take the test.
>
>Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"
>Boy: "9".
>Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"
>Boy: "36".
>And so it went with every question the principal
>thought a third-grade should know. The principal
>looks at Ms Neelam and tells her, "I think Boy can
>go to the third-grade."
>Ms Neelam says to the principal, "I have some of>my own questions. Can I ask him?"
>The principal and Boy both agree.
>Ms Neelam asks, "What does a cow have four of
>that I have only two of?
>Boy: after a moment "Legs."
>Ms Nee lam: "What is in your pants that you have
>but I do not have?"
>Boy: "Pockets."
>Ms Neelam: What starts with a C and ends with a
>T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish
>liquid?
>Boy: Coconut
>Ms Neelam: What goes in hard and pink then
>comes out soft a nd sticky? The principal's eyes
>open really wide and before he could stop the
>answer, Boy was taking charge.
>Boy: Bubblegum
>Ms Neelam: What does a man do standing up, a
>woman does sitting down and a dog does on three
>leg s? The principal's eyes open really wide and
>before he could stop the answer...
>Boy: Shake hands
>Ms Neelam: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort
>of questions, okay?
>Boy: Yep. Â
>Ms Neelam: You stick your poles inside me. You
>tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
>Boy: Tent
>Ms Neelam: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with
>me when you're bored. The best man always has
>me first.The Principal was looking restless, a bit
>tense and took one large Patiala Vodka peg.
>Boy: Wedding Ring
>Ms Neelam: I come in many sizes. When I'm not
>well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
>Boy: Nose
>Ms Neelam: I have a stiff! shaft. My tip penetrates.
>I come with a quiver.
>Boy: Arrow
>Ms Neelam: What word star ts with a 'F' and ends
>in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
>Boy: Firetruck
>Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends
>in 'K' & if u dont get it u have to use ur hand.
>Boy: Fork

>Ms Neelam: What is it that all men have one of it's
>longer on some men than on others, the pope
>doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after
>they're married?
>Boy: SURNAME
>
>Ms Neelam: What part of the man has no bone but
>has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is>responsible for making love?
>
>Boy: HEART.
>
>The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to
>the teacher, "Send this Boy to College, I got the
>last ten questions! Wrong myself!"

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Well, today i went for taylor's open day with mei theng. Haha. i think i was lost. because i couldnt find taylor so many branch. haha. finally we asked for direction. So mei theng and I went for the pre-u talk. well, i got no comment about it. is just getting to know more abour CAL, SAM, and etc. It is an hour talk i guess. haha. by the way we went off early doesnt want to listen about TBS. Ah HA guess who i met? jonathan. surprising he is there. haha. i msg him, din reply, wth. okay mind that. and So we went to the cafeteria to look for food. WHY?? I didnt eat my breakfast leh. how disappointing, no food. Oh well i guess we have to use the coupon to take the sandwiches. YUMMY! it taste delicious. haha. what do you expect from a person with empty stomach?
SO i checked the time! oh gosh i'm late for the next talk. quickly run to the next lecturer room. haha. luckily it havnt start yet. haha. get a seat for myself, oh yea without mei theng. Guess again, i saw this guy from my church, CDM. haha sadly i didnt talk to him coz i dont know him well.
half way thru the talk, mei theng msged me to leave. and i was WAT THE HELL?? haha jkjk. lol so i replied her that the talk is not over ask her to hang around a while or so. Okay i think this kinda bores me. I dont want to continue. just meet a few ppl. there are michelle, jonathan, sam, juliana, huey jen and pn.jasminder, my bio teacher.
OH the worst part. i got nothing to do and i went for this computer skill talk. gosh i make the wrong choice. SO BORING. should go for engineering!

NEXT, was, erm, erm, A&W. i fell on the road. its stupid. because i was walking and i fell. wat nonsense and its nto the first time i'm doing it. and then i kena marah from my parents because of falling. being reckless and etc. Den kenna scolding for another time becoz i'm being blur.
aiya. is 2.30 liao
i'm sleepy. cheers.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Have i told you why i chose this background? I think I didn't. Oh well, I find this background is white and soothing. The vivid backgroudnd shows purity. What i think is that purity is one of the significance of innocent. So have you guys ever though that you have a pure heart and show your innocent towards nature?
Oh today, we decorated our christmas tree! yay! is really nice except some of the bulbs spoilt and broken. We decorated the christmas tree with numerous ornaments! Is filled!! oh yea. i couldnt find any space for me to put more. XD and so i was planing to paint my ornament. since i have nothing much to do, i'll just paint it. It is pretty late today. and i'm still awake though i'm sleepy and tired, i wanted to finished this blog.
sometimes i do think about myself. the way i lived and so. am i really fortunate compare to the others? should i compare to my friends or to the kids in africa? Is there a difference? maybe and is see a huge gap between my friends and the african.
This year chirstmas, i hope it gonna be great. The christmas tree is set but without any presents. I doubt myself whether we are goiing to buy present. On second thought i dont have anything i wanted to have anything for christmas. but i do wish to recieve presents XD
today, miss judith told me tat some ppl said that she is a bore person. So i commented in her blog about her. Den she jsut told me its actually being a bore person of reading blog. So.. i was like OWWHHH .. *now u tell me la* haha.. okay la. kinda late . cheers! merry christmas!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

yay! today is the final day for SPM. hoo rah... i'm gonna tell you how i felt lol. kinda stupid. basically after the last paper i up on a smile. My friend asked me whether am i going to scream after the paper. I said no. well i wanted to but i didnt. i heard ppl screaming and it hurt my ear. Dont you think its sound pollution? haha. So everyone stood up and started yelling and hugging. as for me.. i walked out from the side of the hall, pack my back and walk! LOL gosh is last day of school and what was i doing? oh yea. i took few pictures wif my friends i mean really few. I sigh then. i knew some of them tried to ignore me. Heck care.
At home, i was bored and fond in everything. I didnt put on a smile though i knew it ended just like that. i have the unsatisfactory feeling upon myself and wished i could do better. ANYWAY is over. So i think i'll just look forward for the future. N spend my days happily. well today i cleaned my mom's colonstomy bag. oh well, hehe. no comment for it. LOL
oh guess wat.. i started playing maple. =.= tat's surprising man. becoz i told most of my friends tat maple sux and yet i'm playing .. well haha.. tat;s the end of it XD

Friday, December 01, 2006

Hmm i feel like having it green. LOL. well, its raining as usual. I dont know why i like rainy days. Maybe it becoz ppl describe rainy days as moody days. you cant go out and have fun or have yourself under the hot sun. SO ppl said rainy days are boring and etc. wth. i find rainy days is fun especially sleeping! LOL isnt is a nice time for sleeping? haha. Well i know you agree about that. But is juts not that. i like being myself in my room doing things i like to do. haha. And also i find that rain is just like music. hehe. >.O that day i took some pictures of clouds. WOw is nice i can tell you.. i'm going to blogg it soon. haha. i wanna show u guys the pictures i took. YES i like taking pictures but not myself. I"m not photogenic person.
And you gotta know this. Do not refuse to take pictures coz its a nostalgic thing. SO ppl take pictures !!! okay??!!! And i know you guys are great poser from wat i saww in friendster!! okay??

I dont know how to describe my feelings now. The only thing i know is i'm sad. I'm always jealous on others. Seeing them always happy unlike me.

is evening. I enter into my mom's room. She was laying on the bed watching tv.
later she told me something and i was surpirse to hear it. The doc told her to give up instead going through this ordeal. he said this " if i were you i rather gone". i looked at her. She told me she had to go through this and it is eternal. She did bypass surgery. I know it is hard for her and to strive for living. Then she told the doc that " she wouldnt give up even though she knew she had to go through this. She said " i'll pray more and hope my prayer will be answered. The doc wat stunt on wat she said. "You have a good spirit and i trust you can go through this. " Then he ask the nurse to pull the curtain and prayed over her. She said to me "no matter what happen, i will never give up and i belief there is miracle happen to everyone."

It touched me. Sometimes i do feel like giving up on somthing but seeing her i began to change my thoughts. Her pain is much more painfull than i'm going through and why am i complaining?