It wasnt a pleasant day today. I mean it was in school but not at home. I was bored to death. I played maple and trying to level it to lvl 10 but my mom she wont allowed me to do so. Asked me to stop playing. Though she would not know whether i am playing or doing my work. Anyway in maple, for the sake or BroMing. I started off with level one. Now currently I'm just level 8. Long way to go !! In the beggining i mention today wasnt a pleasant day right ?
It is because at home. I didnt speak a single word. All i did is just nodded my head. Then my mind fluctuated to some other thought.
Honestly I can say that among the girls. I'm the weirdest. I can tell you that. What is the point of being a girl. I hate complains and yet i am complaining about this. What was my problem ? Ha guys, i know it started to be bore. I rather to have you ignored this post and just wait for the next post. rather than reading this, you might began to feel I'm being awkward again. Okay the title is I am a girl. Why do i get complains about myself ? My dad said when i untie my hair I look mesy and asked me to tie up. whereas my friends have the opposite thinking. What is Wrong ? I guess i shall just cut my hair ! I think that could have just satisfied my dad. Maybe when i was young i may be a little tomboy to them. Hey things are different now. I am who I am and nothing can have change me. No one own me as I had lived by myself for almost 18 years. I understand what is respect and I respect them. I learn moral in school but it doesnt help much to most people. And i know what is courtesy and I learned it. But the point is what is there got to do with this post. Heck I dont know, i just typed it out.
okay back to me. Hey guys, you sure you want to continue reading this ? Is all about me. Are you interested ? If you are continue reading. Okay so here it goes. So it is to say again, me, I felt that i had slight depression. Based on what wei jing had told me. loneliness + stress = depression. Or you can say all of them happen to me now. Hitherto, I dont know what i wanted to have or to do. I do have wishes and everybody does. But wishes are yet to be fullfilled. Then dreams i thought. What is my dream ? That question does it some how related to what do i want ? 24 hours i will be at home and where can i head to ? after school head home and is like a path for me to start. everytime i reach my peak , i always fall and yet need to know how to strive. My teacher she told me, there was once i was better and now I am starting all over again. My mistakes was repeated and I will be forever in a circle and never be out of the bound. It seem like Forever i will never improved. Like she said, i was afraid of high achievements. I agree with her. I forever never learn. When i learn new stuff i opt to let them go and never bear in mind how usefull it was. Why is this happening to me? Does being humble got any to do with this ? I doubt and i am afraid with the steps i took. Is it really a good path or just Im following the majority goes ? Its seem i am afraid to do things alone. I'm trying to be different and need to strive. Improvements i really need and need a mind set of never letting opportunity go. Opportunity wasnt easy to get. I got this phrase from wp's blog stated "A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity;
an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty". I find this true ! Ha, I need to steal this phrase from him ! XD Oh well, Great ! i felt much better now. Ha ha ha. Thanks to this song i am listening too it really did help me.

Hey !!! I hvnt been blogging for the past few days and this is gonna be a long post. Maybe? Haha it depends on me. Well yesterday, I went to my friend's birthday party, Shu Yi. It was a blast i think. Anyway she had a beautiful house and nice garden. So yea, i got to meet my secondary school friends there. Wah, seriously all of them change vigorously. They are much prettier now. And beside the birthday girl, she invites her college friends too. Everyone have the talent of dancing. Oh yea, she had a basement where we had our dance floor with djs. Anyway dancing is really not my type. I see most of my friends are able to dance. Although some of the girls or the guys are a litlel arrogant. Heck i dont care. I left the party early even before she cut her cake. So yea. i missed some of the cool parts where she got herself a cake on her decent face. While on my way home, my dad he allows me to drive the car back. Haha. I need to practice driving or else i really cant drive !

Did i mention that i pass my driving test? Dont think so ! I can tell u that to pass the skill test is really difficult. I doubt whether it is my skill or the car. Guys, you got to be carefull when you are doing slope. Choose your care wisely. Anywya i got a good one when im doing my slope.. Till parking. It really suck alot. I'm unable to reverse the car though the clutch is released and the enjine died after sometime. Beside the inspector was waited with patience. Dude, it was hot and im sweating. Took me quite some time to do the side parking. Thank god, i manage. Pure luck ? doubt it. I also got to meet some new friends. this girl namedd eng cheng, and was asked to address her as worm. Funny isnt it? Beside that, this guy named Adja or something i Dont know how to spell but is seem to be prounounce like this. What i can recall is was i left the institut early and have time to attend a few class but i didnt. XD i dont play truant. Went to sjmc to visit my mom. So yea. thats what happen to me that day.

Tomorrow is the day. IM GETTING NERVOUS !!!
Oh yes. Im too exaggerating about it. I will be taking my driving test!!
I'm just wondering will i be pass without bribery? I hope i do.
I heard that i will be getting bored tomorrow as it will be a long way to wait. Is it true? I will be there before 7. XD I hope i'll be the first to start and finish. Why? GET THINGS OVER !
Haha. At last the exam for the week is almost over. mark, almost as tomorow i will be having driving test.
Haih, Im getting fatter nowadays. Geez need to go on diet liao. Everyday eat at AC till i bored already. Nothing much to eat and beside im gaining weight. Damn fat liao. I asked my freind whether i am fat she say im not. Anyway i felt it a little now. Is jsut im resting my butt on this comfy chair. Seems like it is getting bigger. = X Hey i am just joking.

Finally there is some ppl who tagged my tagbox. In the beginning i was wondering why isnt anyone tagging. haih. Now at least there is someone~~~

I have nothing much to blog about. Oh yes. Please tag on my tagbox . So empty.. T_T THANKS i knoww you are the best just like me.

btw wp... Im a nice girl.. XD got it?? LOL haha just kidiing. XP
And erm IS this font okay to you? haha

Heloo ~~~ I think it had been a long time since i blog. Oh yes, Next week I'm going to have my driving test on wednesday. Im just wondering whether i should bribe? It seem i refused and i told my parents that i can do well. I told them that one of my friend, he pass without bribe. So I hope i'll pass even without the bribe. My mom made a good point. She said, majority girls are much more reckless compared to the guy. So girls are more likely to fail in the driving test. Sigh. Is it true? I think i'm able to do it without it. The fee is too high. The totally i need to pay is at rm 480. Without bribing and if i did bring it will be 680. Can reach almost a thousand. So far i did 14 hours of driving lesson. Haha. I think its pretty much of me whilst the rest they did 10 hours. XD

These day, i am getting sad. In such a way, i realise my mom she doesnt trust me anymore. I just dont know why. It seem that she thought that I use the computer or online 24 hours. And the truth is I dont. She assume that I use the internet to regular and abide all my stuff. Sometimes when i tried to get my right back, i got scolded. I dont want any misunderstand between us but it keep on happening. What can I do now? Sometime i felt like running away from the house and not to carry any responsible. Here is the few stuff i hate pepople to do to me. First of all putting one's fault to me. I hate that. Secondly, Being accuse for such a away. Thirdly, I dont like people to disturb me when i am annoyed. I get frustrated easily.
Sigh. It always happen. I wonder how long i didn't put a smile on my face. Seriously i haven't been happy ever since i was form 4. Sms which i type "Lol or haha" doesn't really tell you that i am really happy. I need need someone to enlighten my life. Days arent getting better for me =x