Missing her

My mom, she just left me and my family in a sudden. We didn't know that God just took away like this. Anyhow I didn't want to talk about it. Gonna post what had happen today during the funeral. In the morning when I woke up, the sky turn dark and started to rain heavily. It is her funeral procession at CDM held today. I thought its raining and i prayed hard for it to stop. No long then, the rain stopped. The air around the area is cooling and soothing. It is cold. It is a really beautiful morning. My mom she seem to be resting in peace. Yeah she is. Really peaceful and when i looked at her, she seem to be sleeping soundly in the coffin. Though we didn't want her to leave us but we learn to let go. Let her go with God. I know she will live happily and have eternal life in heaven. We left the house and it still have scanty rain pouring. We took a bus to the church and prayed for her. I did not cry that moment because i believe that she is with Jesus. I did eulogy representing my family and said a few words to my beloved mother. I always have phobia talking in front of the people but today i did not. I actually have the courage to do so.

I know it does not seem to be appropriate to say this in a blog about funeral and stuff but i just wanna say something. It was really wonderful. The rain before we left the house was to be belief as shower of blessing. Yeah. After the funeral procession in the church, it rain again. I realized that the rain fall looks like snow to me. =) Maybe I was blur or something i just could sense happiness there. And also I told my grandma that it rain after the mass and she said. Yeah it rained here {my hse} and stopped the moment the mass end. I was like WOw nice. So we went to the memorial park for her burial. I actually cried for her lost. I lost a mother and I have to stay strong no matter what it takes me. We started of with a prayer and began to pay the last respect to her. We place white rose on her coffin and white candles around her burial. It began to rain. Hey it rain again !! Blessing !!! And it stopped once everyone left the grave yard. My grandpa was buried around there. So we went to pay a respect to him. It has been a long time ever since i visit him.

I do not know what i should say,"visit" for a deceased person. Is that appropriate? I do not know. Anyway i'm gonna end it here. Lets begin a new life! I definitely gonna miss her. I gotta need to stay strong just like her. Have cancer for already 10 years. She really have a good spirit and a brave women to fight this sickness and never give up !!! And I'm proud of her.

Thats all ! Of course I am still sad for she is my mother but happy becoz she ended her suffering and have eternal life in heaven. I belief she is watching me now !!!

Take good care of urself and LOVE YOUR mom , Your dad and Ur family members ! bye ~ <3

its my bro's birthday. anyway we didnt celebrate and i didnt want to talk much about it. cheers.

today had lunch with yueji. HAha cant recognise him. He looked the same but weird. yeah i rarely spoke to him in tuition. is just suddenly i began to talk to him. Anyhow, I manage to finish my lunch and was still hungry! usually i cant eat but today ! i manage. IELTS was boring. Need to interpret the flow chart with bombastic words for task 1 and task 2 , she is yet to start. So yeah. Back home, i did the weirdest stuff. So this is what happen to me. As you know, i was sick, So i took my medicine and paracetamol eventhough i dont hv fever. I just took =.='. I overslept eventually, forgetting i need to take my dinner. My bro woke me and ask me to get ready for school. I check the time it is 7.51pm. I read PM a few times. thinking that the time might be wrong. I couldnt believe it is actually 7.51pm. I open the door and told my brother that. ITS Saturday ! no school. believing my brother saying "oh yeah" i went back to my room and sleep. =.=' assuming it is Saturday early morning. Because outside was really dark. Second knock from my brother. he said, its dinner. I Was like OMG i totally forgot about dinner. =.=; seriously i wass really blur. Didnt know the time at alL !anyway kinda late need to take my medic and study. LOL kesian la no credit to sms.!!!!!!! cheers

Today, I had NO fun at all in school. First of all, I'm sick. Yeah, sick. Got sore throat, flu and almost fever. I think i got fever but my friend said I don't. Hey I Sense i have it. I cant concentrate in class because I wasn't feeling well. Is a absurd thing for me to get sick at this time. Anyway, lunch i ate sausage with bread alone. After eating, tried getting in the toilet. BUT... BUT most toilets are so called occupied. I made a habit on pushing the doors to make sure no one was inside. Because there was once, i waited so long and got so pissed when i realize that there isn't anyone. So, I did that, eventually, It turn out unexpectedly. There was somebody in the toilet and she didn't lock the door. I pushed the door of course. Luckily the girl react quite fast. Knew there was a person pushing and able to stop the door from opening. Great, I said many times of sorry outside the toilet and left the toilet without doing my business =.=' Quite embarrassing if i stood there and wait for her to come out. this is the second time. The first time was in Korea, where i actually saw......... T_T *i'll keep that to myself* Back home, my sickness is getting terrible, unable to rest properly, flu is disturbing me. So decided to visit the doctor. The doctor prescribe me some medicine. The most hilarious part was, I didn't tell him that i had terrible flu. just told him i have sore throat. So he gave me the medicine without flu. T_T im still having it and its bad. Gosh, OH YES! I drove alone today! Finally, I drove to Yamaha. was kinda late for class. There was this stupid women. took my parking place. I was about to park and she took it. Anyway my parking skill is terrible. I don't know how to park. HAHAH i just know how to drive. XD


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I'm so DEAD !

Semester 2 begin. Hectic semester! Gotta study like crap now ! Kinda missed blogging ever since i have stop for the past few weeks. So yeah, what am i going to say ! Oh yea in school, I had lunch alone at the cafeteria. Brought my own food. Kinda enjoy doing it. Not all but most. Maybe not.. or perhaps. I still doubt it ! >< I ate dunkin doughnut after moral quiz. Was really really hungry! Lunch, bought saussage cheese bread. ate alone at AC. I saw thiss young women smoking. Screw her la. Wanna die early ah??? After school met Tj. Didnt wanna meet him coz I kinda scared of him ??? no offense seriously. I think i avoided him somehow.. or maybe not? shuck I dont know what the heck i was doing. Soon, I went to cc with siewling. I played CS. not bad i manage to kill some peep. HEAD SHOT MAN! And of course i got back stab ppl.
Explain why Am i being hyper this few days? Maybe because I was darn quiet in class and rarely spoke to people? Even during lunch, i ate alone. Heck, what the crap i was thinking. Like i said i some how enjoy doing that. But after school, I talk non stop with my friend. Not college ppl, assuntarian and my tuition friends! Some how I find myself comfortable to express ? (^.^)
I finally met puiman and another girl. Haha honestly wasnt listening to tj when he is introducing. XD so yeah! Thats it for today! Oh yeah, i really appreciate ppl replying my sms ! Thanks guys. you wouldnt know whether a person is down or sad. Cheers !



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