Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Actitude
lack of confidence
rude
isolation
hermit
neglection
laziness

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Happy Birthday to you Mom. Sadly, I'm unable to celebrate my birthday with you like we always does during my birthday, celebrating together. Every year I always made the same wish that is to hope you are always healthy and safe and always with me. Last year, I didn't. Is it my fault? That I became selfish and wished for something for myself? It is quite weird for a person to wish for someone's sake but not herself. I always wonder is it I who cause her to leave me forever? I miss her so much. I miss her voice. In my last blog, I asked how long it take for a person to remember someone's voice? It is fading from myself. No longer I know how is she sound like. I always think whether I am living in a contented life? I got no idea about it. I always wish and praying and crying for something that I cant reach for. Just my luck, I'm always unfortunate. I don't have the happiness I dreamt off. Just that it happens without knowing it. Is life really unfair? I'm always confused and concern. I wrote in my msn, I said that "it seem that I am always alone." kinda true though. I just received a msg from my friend. He said that the hotel have already booked. Now i got tiny problem or maybe a major problem. I GOT NO BODY TO GO WITH ! Cant cancel the hotel and stuff so yeah ! whos gonna go with me now? I guess just bro and I . haha
ALONE
LONE
ONE