I was looking forward to get a hair cut on Friday after school. Unfortunately I can’t do it. What the hell. Of all Days I didn’t bring wallet. So yea i could not do a hair cut. Anyway it was hilarious that moment. I was with yh at Kiosk wanted to buy some snack. Damn I was really embarrassed that moment! Didn’t realise myself that I didn’t even bring any money ended up yh paid for me. Dear or dear, why la ! I gotta pay yh back tomorrow when i meet him. Ha. Thinking back i was really stupid that moment! At 1 i met with mt at tbs. Oh yea did i mention i don’t have battery and had difficulty to contact mt? YESh now I’m telling. I didn’t charge yesterday night and it was freaking low battery. It is SO i mean SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard to find her la. She was kinda small size and very cute and innocent and errr pretty? XD . HAHA so yea i manage to give a miss call and somehow saw a girl answering a call where she was in quite a distance from me. So i walked close to her and IT IS HER ! WOO HOO. So i told her what i forgot to bring and yea thanks to her . She treat me lunch ! XD she rox ! Both of us went to a isolated restaurant and ate nasi lemak. Kinda nice I LIIIIIIKE IT ! And both of took at least 1 hour there. eat and of course haha chat. AND THEN the chicken was so tempting ! seriously i was i wanted to eat but cant ! i had to fast every friday. And then at home, mom cooked pork and stuff so i was like wth. So i just eat la dont waste food ma. before we leave, i simply wanna kacau that lady. So i talk abit to her . ask her this and that. Lol aint im annoying? Well sometime i think they might be lonely . I see her doing all the work by herself and all.. So are you guys are wondering what we chat about? LOL yea. erm we chatted about peeps . HAHA humiliate them kau kau . LOL joking la.. jsut about college and stuff nia. ><

Ouch i was thinking to blog of something now i dont remember.. haih.. lol well this is the end of the blog?

~end~ HAHA

I just realise something

And i never knew

all along

i was doing my mistake

Till i was told

I knew what went wrong

It wasnt really pleasant that moment

And I had my tears fall upon my cheek

I said thank you to her

I repent

And when i was about to change

I was stop because

At that moment i was fallen

this is bad, i am sick

Indeed the screen is blurr when i am typing

I felt miserable and distress

Sigh

What the hell is happening to me ? !

Am i giving excuses ?

I felt I am

The path i choose

I had to be responsible for it

Damn

This is going to be a quick blog. Yeah a few days i rarely online because i was freaking tired ! First of all I had 3 days continuously organ classes. Gonna drive me crazy ! Seriously. There isnt much time for me to practice ! Less than 24 hours.. So i did hour of hours of practice. Seem like im releaseing stress? tell you wat ! Im stress out ! There was one evening, i was taking a nap when sudddenly my phone rang, mom called. I was aggitated. Seriously i dont know why i was. Maybe i was too tired or something? She woke me up and asked me to inform the maid for something. Okay i did. i went down stairs and told her. At that moment i was really in a bad mood, but of course i didnt show it. I spoke to my maid about something. and guess what ?! SHE DONT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING I WAS TALKING. SHE SEEM TO BE REALLY BLUR ! Wow, i realise i was total in a bad mood. and felt like scolding her. Then i told myself, cyn chill, she just dont know.. Without hesitation i asked her to speak to my mom. And i think it is a better choice for me to do it. And i told my mom about myself having bad mood everytime i woke up from evening nap. And guess what she say. "its nonsense and dont give me excuse" Yeah. Kinda agree with her. Then i tried saying something else like erm i was tired and stuff.
And she say it again dont ssimply give excuses. because i was on holiday and of course i can take a lot of rest at that moment. Ha ! I think i better not to find any arguments with her because she always give me a valid reason till i have nothingn to say ! Ha. Anyway today, Of all things, i did was golf. I repeat golf. GOLF !!!!!!! Seems like a few months i had not been playing golf ! honestly i dont feel like playing golf wanna go to the gym or swimming. I wanna try the new gym!!! new equipments and etc !! that day i pass by the gym !! its was huge and the equipments are new. ! Haih. i wn to go........... ever since the club was renovated i havent pay a single visit but to the driving range it was my first visit. Anyway it was a good job ! nice place to work out ! wp i know u do go to gym at times, so come to my place i bring u there ! XD Too bad no fishing place for tj or else i'll bring him there and do some fishing ! HAHA im just joking ! LOL.

Horoscope for cynnie.. Wat the.. laugh out loud..

Is it time to take a gamble on love? The stars say so -- although this risk shouldn't take you too far outside your comfort zone. This is not the time to start acting completely out of character. After all, if you're presenting yourself to someone else, you have to be who you really are. Authenticity is crucial. But the act of pushing yourself a little bit -- to be bolder or more emotional -- will invigorate you and give you a glow that is hard to resist. -

sometimes i wish for something which is beyond.
would like to be self-centered
and care for myself
but what am i doing is the total opposite
how i wish i turn my life upside down
that no one could ever stop me
would i be satisfied if is it granted?
No defintaly no.
life is not prefect
cant live perfect but can live simple.
Sigh. What am i doing now?
I began to realise the truth and the reality
even ability i realise and also differentiate
I began to observe people around me
whether they are good or bad
and comprehend on people who are unfortunate.
I was thinking,
living in a wealthy family,
does that mean a person can live happily
like me, i consider myself slight fortunate in financial.
but the truth is im not really fortunate too
you got wat i mean?
I have being distress all year long.
all year long i never felt the true happiness.
All i know is sorrow sadness and ordeal
HAHA now came by this true thing.
The true for me is mean freedom.
which is im free for all anxiety and so forth.
But like i said isnt it life we are undergoing?
I dont like being sad, i know ppl wil find this post getting weird
but i couldnt help myself.
it seem that there isnt any cure for me.
all i did is live with it.
living is hard so sometimes i try making it simple
Haih !
think i'll end her. bed time.

COlours !!!!!!!! Do you like color? Oh guess what I do at times ! Isnt it color a beautiful thing to see and to imagine? Everything we each see is colored ! Haha didnt wanted to write color in my blog but i saw text color So i was thing isnt it color a beautiful thing? Aint I repeating it again? Haha
Seriously everytime i blog i'll have a song with me. Haha kept me smiling ! The song tittle is Puff, the Magic Dragon. Haha ye-wheen gave it to me. Thanks ya ! Dont know what to blog about but HEy guys keep on smilling like you never did ! Smile means happy, happy means gay, gay means joy ! Smile smile smile or laugh. XD Ha-ha-ha lol
Isnt it nice if you are actuallly free ? how do you define free ? Okay, i went looking for the defination of free where is what i got.
–adjective

1.	enjoying personal rights or liberty, as a person who is not in slavery: a land of free people.

2.	pertaining to or reserved for those who enjoy personal liberty: They were thankful to be living on free soil.

3.	existing under, characterized by, or possessing civil and political liberties that are, as a rule, constitutionally guaranteed by representative government: the free nations of the world.

4.	enjoying political autonomy, as a people or country not under foreign rule; independent.

5.	exempt from external authority, interference, restriction, etc., as a person or one's will, thought, choice, action, etc.; independent; unrestricted.

6.	able to do something at will; at liberty: free to choose.

7.	clear of obstructions or obstacles, as a road or corridor: The highway is now free of fallen rock.

8.	not occupied or in use: I'll try to phone her again if the line is free.

9.	exempt or released from something specified that controls, restrains, burdens, etc. (usually fol. by from or of): free from worry; free of taxes.

10.	having immunity or being safe (usually fol. by from): free from danger.

11.	provided without, or not subject to, a charge or payment: free parking; a free sample.

12.	given without consideration of a return or reward: a free offer of legal advice.

13.	unimpeded, as motion or movement; easy, firm, or swift.

14.	not held fast; loose; unattached: to get one's arm free.

15.	not joined to or in contact with something else: The free end of the cantilever sagged.

16.	acting without self-restraint or reserve: to be too free with one's tongue.

17.	ready or generous in giving; liberal; lavish: to be free with one's advice.

18.	given readily or in profusion; unstinted.

19.	frank and open; unconstrained, unceremonious, or familiar.

20.	unrestrained by decency; loose or licentious: free behavior.

21.	not subject to special regulations, restrictions, duties, etc.: The ship was given free passage.

22.	of, pertaining to, or characterized by free enterprise: a free economy.

23.	that may be used by or is open to all: a free market.

24.	engaged in by all present; general: a free fight.

25.	not literal, as a translation, adaptation, or the like; loose.

26.	uncombined chemically: free oxygen.

27.	traveling without power; under no force except that of gravity or inertia: free flight.

28.	Phonetics. (of a vowel) situated in an open syllable (opposed to checked).

29.	at liberty to enter and enjoy at will (usually fol. by of): to be free of a friend's house.

30.	not subject to rules, set forms, etc.: The young students had an hour of free play between classes.

31.	easily worked, as stone, land, etc.

32.	Mathematics. (of a vector) having specified magnitude and direction but no specified initial point. Compare bound1 (def. 9).

33.	Also, large. Nautical. (of a wind) nearly on the quarter, so that a sailing vessel may sail free.

34.	not containing a specified substance (often used in combination): a sugar-free soft drink.

35.	(of a linguistic form) occurring as an independent construction, without necessary combination with other forms, as most words. Compare bound1 (def. 11).

36.	without cost, payment, or charge.

–adverb

37.	in a free manner; freely.

38.	Nautical. away from the wind, so that a sailing vessel need not be close-hauled: running free.

–verb (used with object)

39.	to make free; set at liberty; release from bondage, imprisonment, or restraint.

40.	to exempt or deliver (usually fol. by from).

41.	to relieve or rid (usually fol. by of): to free oneself of responsibility.

42.	to disengage; clear (usually fol. by from or of).

WOW isnt that alot? LOL oh well, slowly read la. If dont want to read... DO something else like watching tv, dream of me, or write a poem about me. HEY im just kidding. Read something of course ! Or do your maths question or jsut surf on the internet? OR give me a ring when you are bored or you need me to help you in problems? I DONT MIND SHARING jsut dont be shy to share k?
So today basically I did nothing ! WOW THIS COLOR IS HURTING MY EYE
AHh this is jusst alrite but still so bright ! cant really read my words !
what about this? kk back to me. Today all i did is practice my organ and did some motif ! I love improvising songs ! Sometimes i just dont follow the order for the motive. Beside that I played mysterious marrionates. Gosh how to play.. need to play at tempo 120+ and hopefully toplay even faster than that !
Turn to red color ! wow.. color of blood. vampire grrr.. insane la me........... im sure you guys are thinking. waht kind of blog is that. No interest? leave this blog. Isnt it simple to do so? yes? no? of course yes. Just click exit on ur top right button. so I'll say good bye to you since you are exiting my blog !
OKAY is the last color grey ! HAHA erm nothing much to blog. i gotta go. need to do some readng now !see ya ! oh yea today i had fun mapling ><>

Haha. Blog, yesh what it is to blog now? I dont know ! I'll think of something now to blog. Err current this song i am listening to is quite nice. Yeah ! It is soothing and melodious ! Gee, I havent started to write what i really wanted to blog. This pass few days, I have been in church playing the organ. First for the chinese mass and the other i played it spontaneously. I screwed up for the chinese masss. I guess i had played it badly! I know my introduction was terrible ! I got the feeling that they are people who are watching me play ! I didnt expect to play the organ spontaneously ! I attend the mass for the section of annoiting of the sick. Anyway it was awesome that i could actually remember how to play the mass order ! Thank God ! In church, I saw this guy, he look familiar as if i know him! And we both have eye contact at times. I felt like talking to him. Oh yea he is an altar boys ! lol !
Okay today i had buffet at sunway hotel with my family. Great dinner ate quite alot ! especially sushi i long wanted ! XD anyway is kinda late i need to go ! bye ! good nite ~

here is a song lyric
title ABOVE ALL

Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what you're worth

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what you're worth

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

It is really beautiful if you actually took the time to look around the world especially the surrounding. All this while, I am short sighted and I am lazy to wear my glasses but just recently i put on contact lense. It seem that the past i wasnt wearing glasses everything look blurr and plain. Some time it is hard to observe something and also I have no interest of finding new stuff or gaining knowledge from the world like si tenngangs. But now, I realise it is really beautiful when you can see things clearly and moreover you havent been seeing it for quite sometimes. Today, Like I said i realise the beauty of tonight's night. It really did ! The shimmering stars, the bright streets likes, the dark sky, the floor, the plants, the buildings wow ! It was really great ! Usually when i look at the mirror, I had a blurr image of myself and not knowing how do i actually look like. But once i wore contacts, I realise i look the same. XD sorry it make much no difference. I am not trying to persuade people to wear it. But this is what i realise. things are much more clearer and I definately would not be blur like i was used to be. Guys, I think i wasted few years of not wearing my glasses when i am outside or travelling. You see how much of beauty i missed? ALOT. if i counted years maybe it seem less but minutes and hours or even days ! It could be infinate !
So how are things going on lately? Haih this seem to be like a diary. But it is what i have thought or concern about. You guys have a wonderful day? sad? bored? happy? gay? i hope you guys did your day well !
You saw that picture right above? I got this from deviantart. it seem a good picture. like i said today;'s post is much more on beauty!

Hey ! I just received an email from my aunt from chicago. I was thinking how come she didnt email me for quite some time. Is just yesterday i emailed her and she reply instantly! She said she had all the emails deleted. Then she told me my cousin decorated the easter eggs would love to sent me the pictures. I guess i'll post them on here !
So yesterday i had really fun at midvalley. Shopping aint my type seriously. My friend, he was trouble looking for clothes for me! Haha. I'm so sorry about this. LOL
anyway i didnt want to post more about it. Just made a conclusion about myself. Shopping is not my type!!! So hard to do shopping... I rather have my mom buy it for me and i'll hibernate at home. I think shopping is like waste of money and time ! Guess how much time we spend on finding a piece of clothe. T.T Then i found this shirt quite alrite. But WOAH it was like RM 89.90 !! OMG so expensive. =.= how can ppl buy this shirt. Like stealing ppl's money.

Began to feel lazy. why is this happening? Oh yes. i had a harsh time puting on contact
So hard. wat to do? Im lazy to put on my spec. Guess what my both eye power increase. was sad about it. 200 and 150 . wth. i'll end here bye !

So yesterday, yesh, it was, Ah HA yea, saturday. A few of us went to celebrate judith's belated birthday at sunway pyramid. It was pretty fun and honestly it was boring after lunch. Nothing to do. ><><

Gosh, I cant believe, andy... I was looking forward to see him but he didnt come. T_T disappointed. You gotta give me another 1 mil, andy XDDD LOL. okay back to judith's party. We had our lunch at pizzahut at 2 pm. *i was starving*

While waiting...................................... Some of us practically most of them -____________-
except me, are taking pictures of themself. As IF they are LIKE VERY PRETTY. HAHAH IM JUST KIDDING. LOL YEAh everyone was like really pretty. Honestly, really, you can have a look on judith's freindster. I think she have posted it there. YOu have read "i think" right? I am just telling you that. I havnt seen those pictures yet. Yeah, predicted I was totally a fag or somthing. LOL.Ah yes, it was my very first time of meetting teng jian, YEah I agreed with yen han that he is quite good looking. Even my friends they agreed. LOL You guess it right i have asked a few girls about him. Not forgetting yen han too. >< LOL BOTH OF THEM ROCK US ! LOL too exaggerating? SO while waiting, Like I said everyone was taking pictures and soem of them fond of going to the toilet. Kesian judith, everytime she asked where are they, the same answer everyone had told her is toilet. Judith was reallly cute at that moment with her gold hairband beautify her looks. As for meitheng, hell yea, she was hot. Wear.. i dont know wat is it called but it is in pink. XD the rest, Im sry guys i didnt pay notice to you ppl. LOL. I think all wear casual kua. Peace ^^

I began to feel lazy to blog about it. In short..

judith was shocked when annjune came back from toilet with a cake and we sang a birthday song to her.
All of us have no way to go and wondered around searching for goods.
Finally, we had a drink at DOME and sook jing read it again by "DO ME" dont think dirty. XD
She had another surprise which is she got a huge teddy bear from few of her friends. tats all i lazy like a pig liao. good night.

Hello... = ) Yesh ! today is the last day of school ! Yeah ! Next week im gonna have 2 weeks of holidays ! Anyway holiday doesnt mean i have to neglect my assignments right? I have a lot to do and also reading for my subjects. Darn homework again ! Currently i was freaking bored. My class ended at 1 pm and i gotta wait for my friends to end their classes at 3 or 3.30. 2 hours of waiting. So guess what lame stuff i did ? After the class ended, I went looking for the photoshop to take my picture. I was lost. Really i was. I cant find the shop and was looking around the area to search for it. Crazy la me. i was alone like some kind of idiots. So i have spend rm15 for it. T.T
After that i thought of lunch, what should i eat? Eventualy while walking i met wei wei and his friend. * I think that guy is his boyfriend. Like so close nia.* So both of them bought me to erm. ADP library. Wah much more nice than the main campus. Less people and peace ~ So i went to the counter and took a key. I thought i am going in the library with them eventually they ditch me out. I was like.. "you are leaving....?" Changed my mind and follow them out from adp building. Hmm i was saying lunch right? I totally forgot about lunch at that moment. Haih. Aunty la me. XD They left me and i was alone now. The feeling was like lonely. T.T sob. HAHA. So i had lunch bymyself at the near by stall. No offence the food sux. So salty. And expensive. I didnt not finish my noodle and left the restaurant. No mood to eat. Walked pass the cc and stood infront of the cc and asked myself whether should i go in? On second thought, nah. I felt bad going in cc. Mom dont let me though. Haha. So after loitering the area, when back to college and start bloggin and this is wat i am doing now. This post is really terrible, Printed a few pages of biology and surf the net.
OH yes. I think. I THINK i need to change myself as in like my clothing and stuff. I hv friends calling me aunty and stuff. But the most hilarious part is my MOM, I mean my MOM she really did asked me why i dress like that. I was like WOW she commented on my clothing. Yikes ! LOL I wear clothes for my comfortable not for anyone to look. Maybe i need to work on picking the right clothes in my closet. Oh well, i see this gay guy in pink next to me. Dont know what he is doing. Perhaps Suring? haha. well this is the end of my post.
People is good friday today! remember to go chuch ya ?

Okay just now i wrote a whole paragragh and how could i jsut delete all of them? I really wanted to $#$^%&*(()&^%$#@ CYNTHIA !!!!!!!! %^%&*()*&^%$#@. Okay Whew IM STILL NOT CHILL !!!!!!!!! %^&*(&^%$#@$$%^&* crazy la me.
I have a problem, recetnly i dont talk much and now i dont speak fluently. Help. I need people for me to talk too. Or else i can become dumb. Today i thought i could be a fine day. But unfortunately i was scolded in evening for nuts.
STRESS DUDE !
IM SICK OF IT !

gonna continue tommorow. i need to study for my test bye ~