These days im being reckless all the time. Like today's class, i mean my organ class, i kept on playing the wrong value and my timing isnt right. So now i really need to practice like mad to achieve my goals. I need to pass my grade 5 exam. taken me too long for it. But everytime i practice i make mistake i mean silly mistake and marks are easily deducted. I really hope i can make it. And today, i was thinking whether i could make it. I play like shit yet taking this exam? What nonsense? Come on, teacher's grade! I need to play the best and aim for the high! So yea. I need to work work. And also, Class test is like on that week?? how can i do both?? Hmmm I think its me, mentally weak haha. thats why I always have low self esteem. Gosh i need to change or else i wont improve. Lol anyway that is life to us, we need to learn and improve. Haha.
At home, I was doing stuff again being reckless. Whats wrong with me !!!! I drop things i broke that. i mean i didnt broke but, I create a fuss ! SO yea! tats about it.

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DOnt ask me why im doing. Im not free or what so ever is just Im bored. Okay? No one wanted to talk so. I ended up doing this nonsense. Ha good night!

Boo !

I love music !
Thx daniel !
Kevin Kern is really nice !
I hope I can play like him !
XD
Anyone wanted canon in D ? I dont know what version is that but it is really nice. Im willing to share. Hopefully i got a title for that. Hahaha ! Cheers!

Exams are coming soon. Start studying! =D hopefully I can do well.

"Accept your mistake and learn from them.
It is what you should be doing now.
That is life."

Quote :
I realise I missed alot of stuff in my life. Nothing much are really appreaciated till someone have awaken me. Now I need to cope everything I missed no matter how much endeavor I. I got to do it. Ask a question for yourself. What is life actually for?

Today was Awesome man ! Haha. I was a volunteer for the allianz mobility. Seriously it was fun ! I mean fun as in helping out and during some charity to them. So yea, i met several people around there. Some from yayasan something. Sry i didnt get him when he was speaking. Anyway i was helping out in this toy/book store. I arrived around 10.30 when i suppose to be there at 9.30. An hour late ! A few days before, i was thinking whether should i go for it. Semester exam is coming soon and i would like to have myself studying at home. But I ended up going for the charity drive. Anyway back to it. It was held in Amcorp mall. Of all places amcorp. And I was surprise with the huge crowd there. Many disable people are there, volunteer and resident around taman jaya. I was assigned to one of the store which was the toy/book store. Both! Anyway I helped to sold quite a number of stuff. Though most of the toys are old and dirty, yet they still buy ! Maybe it's because it is cheap or just do some charity. I notice a couple of people refuse to buy, till I told them it is charity, immediately they bought some goods from there. Too bad I didnt have a camera, or else i'll post some of the pictures in this blog. Ah yes, i donate RM 5 for a lucky draw. And guess what i got? a mineral water bottle.... isnt it fascinatiiing? haha. Anyway the first prize it will be nokia 7373. I think that is the brand. Anyway, the probability of getting is very low. You have to withdraw the number of 250 to get 1 handphone. Just one handphone they have. the rest it will be either mineral water or mug. I got a free t-shirt... which was like XL. humungous! it doesnt really fit me well ! haha. nice ! Anyway, it was really really really nice ~~~~~~~~~~ Im really really hapeeeeeee.

i am really exasperated by this fella. dont know who the hell. Anyway i'll post his dumb email here. mr.eroglu55@hotmail.... beware with this dumb s person. LOL!! i say S >< haha
hey if u dont get what i am blogging. ask me. becoz i also dont know what i am posting. LOL. DIdnt wanna check. bye ~

Hey guys ! take time to think the past ! Take time to reflect what you have done! Any achievements? Have you wished that you can go back in time? I do ! Most of the time ! Yea I realised that these few days, I havent been doing anything great for myself. Althought I simply finding excuses that I am really tired. Yes, the truth is I really am. But thinking back, for an example, my dad had been working hard for the family. Have I ever heard him saying tired? No. I never did. He knows what he is doing for the sake of his family and the love he have commited. Although sometimes I was frustrated that he always watch golf channel but be considerate a little, Work so hard to earn. What is it for? I guess you know yourself. Everyday I am worried and afraid of something. Some of you may know what it is. Like today, she almost admit to the hospital. Told me it is unbearable. Im really afraid. I dont know what to do when I see her in this condition except to help her to do some simple thing, like massage. Some times i did massage for her for half hour before or more. though it is tiring but still, she is my mom. Im tired of worrying. When can she be totally cured? I really dont know. It is irregular for her. Sometimes she may be healthy but at times she could be really sick. As i look in her eyes, I know the pain she endure. Many may give up, but she didnt. Like I said before, she have a high spirit to live. Yesterday she asked me, Have i pray for her lately? And I told her no. I felt sorry for her then. Immediately before i slept i made a prayer. I hope she is fine all the time definately i will take care of her ! = ) Please pray for her ! many thanks ! bye ~ plz dont comment k? ><

Today, i received a letter from yamaha. And i was pretty anxious about it !

Yamaha Higher Grade Examination

Candidate Name CYNTHIA ______ PHAY - EE
Address bla bla bla


Exam. type Electone Performance Exam
Grade 5
Exam. Date 01/Jun/2007
Exam. Time 10:55 AM (Please report by 10:25 AM)
A/P Exam Time ( Please report by )
Venue Kelana Jaya Branch
No. 8 Jalan Perbandaran
Kelana Jaya
Petaling Jaya
Selangor Darul Ehsan
Tel : 03-78030900

Aiy.. I lazy to type the rules and the regulation.. Damn alot la..!!! Im so freaking scared ! Not ready at all !!! less than a month !!!! moreover I havent been practicing and also Semester exam is comming soon! HOW NOW??? DIE LA. If i failed this, I dont think I will have the chance to retake the exam again! wish me luck ! haha. Anyway gotta go soon. Lol

just now i was chatting with this online friend.
Damn i wanted to copy the convo here but too bad la i got dc and was unable to view from message history. Anyway this is a rough idea what he actually told me....

Adam : Hey

cyn : yo

adam : you galz?

cyn : er ya?

adam : can i view your webcam?

cyn : no?

adam : im just trying to tell you about your love

cyn : wth?

adam : seriously im doing it for FOC

cyn : nah, no thank you. im not interested

adam : you will get bad luck

cyn : GOOD LA. i die faster.

adam : seriously i can tell you about your love. turn it on

cyn : not interested.

adam : you have friendster?

cyn : duh. you added me =.=''

adam : add me la.

cyn : i told you. you added me.

adam : oh yea. i did.

That;s the end of it. Stupid kid. =.=''

Okay I see most of you realise that i change my profile skin. Yea. Seriously i did. Anyway i think this could be a better background compare to the last i have it. Much more comfortable with my eye. Haha.

So today I had fun, playing badminton with siewling. Honestly.. .. I own her !! lol.. joking haha. Oh yea, Seriously that idiotic women, whom wanted to check whether my slings's member ship for that club. But honestly she isnt. Before they create a new system, relative who join in dont have to pay but now. wtf. Currently they have this new system where you need to pay and memebership will be checked. Yea, actually sling suppose to pay rm 10.50 wth. so expensive. last time it was 9 buck or something. Just becoz it is a newly-renovated-club-ass-with-newly-system club was pissing me off. Seriously i felt like slapping that woman. Okay i understand you are doing your job. So i told her that she was my sis, then she somehow threatened me that she'll check my family profile. then i finally told the truth, and ended up we didnt pay coz we was bullshitting.. then she told us not to repeat it again. So yeah that is it. *psst* i heck care next time i'll figure out another way to smuggle sling in . Haha. Now i know how was that ****ing system, guess what i'll make sure i'll plan something before getting in and without anyone paying the price. Too much lar !!! We rarely use the club yet have to pay the monthly basis. except for my dad of course... golf.... Haih.. As for today, he went for mercedes tournament.. somewhere in malaysia. heck knows! So he said he played badly cant win the tournament and stuff. Okay same excuse lar. Didnt mean to say that. Okay back to the club, damn it lar. again i said "new system" they have to scan ur id card before entering. We was giving an id card. I didnt know that I need to swap the card. So sling and I was like pulling the door and stuff. Haha Dumb la both of us. So we both went it after watching one family entering. Sweat ! We was so blurr. Bloody hell lar, no instruction and stuff. In the court, Haha. i was using my racket and kept on hitting the net. Till sling was annoyed by me. Haha. Anyway I always does that went i was playing the badminton. So then around 6.20+ we left. Guess what dumb thing i did. I was using that card keep on swapping it.. Lol fun la.. As we both havent been that "Newly renovated club" <==stupid, we decided to explore abit la. I was wondering where is the toilet. Finally i found. Wat the hell la, they used back the old lockers. EH we paid so much of course expect a good facilities la why used back the old lockers. Haih... In addition, the toilet was like a maze la, I dont know where is the exit door. Too much lockers and it wasnt really spacious at all ! Then finally we found the exit. which linked to the entrance. Further more the door was open. !!!! DAngerous la dude. girl's toilet open so big for what. Waiting for guy to smuggle and peep ah? lol. So i brought sling to the pub, sadly only one pool table hahaha.. okay this is the end for today . good bye tata !

Too much stress is bad for your health — but so is too little. Stress is a perfectly natural reaction that prepares you for action. It's the old "fight or flight" principle, and it worked to keep our ancestors alive back when they lived in caves. In a stressful situation, cortisol and adrenaline are released into our bloodstreams, raising our normal blood pressure and getting us all fired up.

Trouble is, this works much better when you're being chased by a saber-toothed tiger than it does when you're working on an annual report. Stress hormones were designed to be quickly flushed out of our systems by action — either fight or flight. We often don't get that release with modern day stressors. The hormones linger in our blood, pushing up our normal blood pressure.

Techniques that Lower Blood Pressure and Stress
Get involved. Do a little research to find information on these stress-reducing techniques:

• progressive relaxation
• effective goal-setting
• meditation
• exercise
• deep breathing
• hobbies.

Stress Management
Continuous stress can raise normal blood pressure. Researchers have known this for years. But stress that causes higher than normal blood pressure for one person may have no effect on another person.

We react individually to stressors, and because of this, stress management techniques have to be tailored to the individual. Not every strategy works for everyone. While deep breathing and progressive relaxation may lower one persons blood pressure, another person may find those stress management techniques actually increase stress.

Many people are put off by the flowery, "release your inner child" language that describes many stress management techniques. Often, though, some solid, tried and true applications are hiding behind this language. There just seems to be a tendency to want to "pretty it up."

Examine Your Stressors
The first step toward reducing stress and lowering your blood pressure is identifying what you, personally, deem stressful. Make a list of the stressors in your life, and consider your options. You can fight stress in two ways — by learning general stress-reducing techniques, or by removing the stressor. Perhaps learning deep breathing techniques are all you need to reduce stress at work, or perhaps you need to find a less stressful job.

Preventing stress from affecting your normal blood pressure can be as easy as taking up a hobby you enjoy or exercising. Physical activity works stress hormones out of the bloodstream, thereby lowering blood pressure.

Small Steps to Stress Reduction
Stress reduction need not always involve deep breathing or New Age mysticism. Try some of these simple ideas to get your stress under control:

• long baths or showers
• stroking the cat
• listening to quiet music
• watching a sunset (or sunrise)
• gardening
• taking the time to plan your day
• going for a walk
• congratulating yourself on what you did right today.

Tomorrow i will be having my malaysian studies final exam. Yahoo. Anyway i still have moral to go. wth.
Okay these few days i havent been blogging. So guess what, yunling is the first ever person who bring me to cc. Haha yes cybercafe.Woot. my first time >< anyway kinda cool too. gotta play a few games and yes i also seen moon yee there. LOL i think her name is spelt like that except of course for "moon" lol. supposely i think it should be mun yee. haha. What else? err I find nothing much to blog. Oh yea spiderman 3. are u sure its nice? Lol i heard it is saddening. few heros died. Dont ask me who i have no clue i just heard.
My maid she is quite annoying, i reallly hate ppl to enter my room without knocking through the toilet door which connected to my brother's room. Moreoever i was sleeping! Come on i really hate it la. Suddenly burst into my room. That happen for the first time. The second time.. she quietly enter my room. I was awaken by her too. too mcuh la she, she asked me how come i am able to hear her. Then i told her, I sense the door is not close well. And then i somehow scolded her. I told her before and she is doing it! then my mood, HA mood swing was bad mood. then kept on complaining till my mom asked me, what else you want to complain about? the fan ? the tv? the food? Peace dude ^^
Cyn please chill ! its kinda exaggerating of me, everything i do, i was like wth. I was thinking whether should i really have fun during my period of a lvl or jsut serious? if im plain serious, life is gonna be boring throughout the year. Anyway if i decided to persuade what i am currently during. It gonna bores me then, i think i should do it both, have fun while working hard. >< As for the stress, Im gonna be like wei jing, keep on puting stress and turn out to be fun of having stress ahaha.. I hope i can do that. fun having stress. =x okay this is the end. cheers !

I adapted this from my friend. I kinda agree about it. Here it goes

HABITS are hard to quit because if u take away H u sill hav ABIT

take away A u stil hav the BIT

take away B stil there is IT

take away I and you get a cross.....so hav faith


Anyway since i am blogging, honestly words, im getting much better. Finally when anyone aske me how was college, this time i told them it was okay compared to last time i told them i hate it. Maybe in the beginning i dont accept myself in college as i have already assume that college life is terrible. Yeah it still are ! But i lived with it. Life is already so miserable why wanna live miserably? I just dont understand, some of you like to watch sad comedy or any shows that was saddening. like i said life is miserable ! dont make it worst okay? lived with it and it will be great ! But not as great as you could wished but i t can be a slight better ! Im sure it will ! Anyway would like to say happy 18th birthday to teng jian. Happy birthday ! oh yes im sorry i could get you any present ! lol ! I i still have1 hour 30 minutes before teng jian's birthday anway consider this la ! lol !! okay guys i gotta get on with my homework work hard and forth.